Thank you all for your prayers. Trying to stay positive and in faith. Talking to recruiters, updating LinkedIn profile, submitting online applications. Feel very bifurcated. Rapture schizophrenia. Focusing on finding a job like it's this huge priority, which it is if we are going to be here awhile. Not much savings to draw down from. Asking God to save us before our financial wagon plunges over the cliff that sets just a little further on down the hill that I feel like we are careening down today. And yet, in the midst of the tyranny of the seemingly urgent, I am still aware that His :whistle: trumpet could blow at any moment. Yep. No problems in my life that the rapture would not fix in a moment, the mere twinkling of an eye. Guys...I am really, really struggling today. Sitting here literally weeping as I type, dealing with so much anger at the Lord for allowing my life to be so unnecessarily hard...yet again. I just spent somewhere between 1-2 hours online trying to figure out and jump through the hoops to get unemployment. After about 90 minutes of trying to figure out a non-intuitive, poorly designed, poorly functioning program/website, it dumped me out and I have no idea if I have even completed the steps necessary to draw unemployment. I wanted to pick up my lap top and throw it with all my might through the front window of my office, while screaming F-bombs at t.he TOP OF MY LUNGS!! Great man of God that I am. Pathetic! I am so done with this world and trying to survive in it. Please Lord, if You are not coming soon, then just come get me. I want to come home NOW!!!!!!!! Woke up thinking of this song this morning--get me out of this unsafe, unkind, unreliable world... I just want to be with God where I am safe, loved, and free to be who He created me to be in glorifying Him. I feel none of those things today. Sorry for your pain. I will continue to lift you to the Lord in prayer. I don't really know what to say other than, when we are down to nothing, God is up to something. May Almighty God give you His peace. Ive lost my job as well but I am fortunate in many ways. I pray that God finds you what you need. I can relate to what you’re going through. In the midst of trying to file for unemployment I was packing and moving at the same time. I was also dealing with a rep over the phone who misguided me with the procedure and said I couldn’t file yet until my severance ended and that wasn’t true. I was suppose to still notify them and get the process started and still be looking for work even though I wasn’t entitled to the benefits to start. I had all sorts of problems with their website so I went in person to the nearest office. I was later informed I should have applied 3 weeks earlier to get the process rolling so I was penalized and didn’t get paid for 3 weeks of unemployment wages. :negative: It is a confusing mess on the ins and outs of the whole process. One rep claimed I can fight the 3 weeks they withheld back by going to court. I just didn’t want to stand before a judge, it just wasn’t worth it. Then applying for health and dental benefits was another issue. On the phone for a few days, with their lovely phone tree of options to choose ... then got cut off while on hold. That benefit rep didn’t make the effort to call me back so I ended up with a different rep and had to go through the process all over again. :wacko: I will be praying things work out for you. Can you call up your local unemployment office and see if you can get an appointment to see a rep in person? Or is their facility all shut down and no appointments at this time? Well, it's been just over five weeks now since I lost my job. I have applied for somewhere close to 45 project manager positions and have worked with six different recruiters during that time frame. So far, no job yet. The Lord has provided through some unused vacation time my previous employer tacked on to my final check and a few weeks of severance pay, along with the government's "stimulus" monopoly money, which feels like a handout and really leaves a bad taste in my mouth. (Maybe that's just my sinful pride, but I don't like the idea of handouts when I am able and willing to work.) I really wish I could hear from the Lord more clearly than I do on matters that are not written in black and white in His Word. In the back of my mind, I still wonder if I heard Him correctly back in 2016 that my previous job that I just lost was going to be the last job I had before we went home. Did I just misinterpret Him in thinking I would be working right up until the day the trumpet sounded, instead of losing the job before the rapture but not needing another one before we are harpazoed? It makes staying disciplined in applying for work more mentally challenging, because I don't know if I am just going through an effort in unnecessary futility because I am not trusting God and what I thought I heard/understood back in 2016? Or was that just my own thought? What I do know for sure from the Word is that if a man is not willing to work, let him not eat. Last I checked, I still get hungry pretty regularly, as does my wife. (who thankfully still has her job). So, I have tried to make a genuine concerted effort to find another job, but so far everything has fallen through. It is frustrating, and at the same time I am not even quite sure how to react to it. I have to fight off the fear that comes when I feel like our "financial wagon" is careening down the hillside out of control and headed for a cliff, knowing I have absolutely no power to stop it other than to cry out to the Lord for His grace and mercy to save us from financial disaster, yet again. I do have one six-month contract position where a first interview went well and that I hope to get to round two this week. Meantime, my unemployment claim has still not even been processed yet for approval. Reminds me of when I got so sick with Lyme and had to go on disability...had it not been for the disability policies I had taken out through my employer, I literally would have either died or committed suicide before they ever arrived at the final disposition of my case. I think it was somewhere between 2-3 years before they finally decided that yes, I really was sick. SMH. I think it was President Reagan who famously once said some of the scariest words you may ever hear are, "I'm with the government and I'm here to help." Your prayers would be appreciated for the Lord to continue to sustain us financially, for His peace and favor in the midst of the uncertainty as I continue to look for work, and for His will to be done regarding a new job. Thank you. If we are still here on June 1 and I don't have a new job by then, I will have to take a really deep breath. Watchman, praying for you and thousands of others who are now under the new normal of unemployment. It is all part of the dark and evil plan ... but stronger is he that is in you, than he that is in the world. For me, I’m getting too old to look for a new Job. If our church can’t bounce back, we will have to close it and then we’ll both be out of work as well but not quite retirement age yet, catch 22. I have contemplated what it may look like to either live on my daughters land in our camper, or a tent city, while taking care of my elderly mom too ... interesting prospective to contemplate. Watchman, Hang in there. Don’t get discouraged Jesus is coming soon! Here is the latest news that will put a smile on your face! Per Sean Osborne @ Eschatology Today … Mike Pompeo is flying to Israel to meet with Bibi and to implement Trump’s “Peace to Prosperity” Plan and will annex parts of the Jewish land of the West Bank. I’m praying for you! And I know what Lyme disease is like. I’m, unfortunately, battling that right now. I have painful inflammation in my stomach and intestines and I’m taking 4 Tumeric pills per day to stop the pain. I will be having another teleconference meeting with my doctor tomorrow morning and hopefully she will give me more pills or something stronger to fight off this disease. It would be funny if the rapture happens tomorrow morning while talking to her ... she will see me and my dog flying up. :mdrmdr: Many fine prayers and thoughts! While standing at the waters edge, EXPECT a miracle! He will be with us through every storm. He just might ask you to get out of the boat of fear and walk on water! Love & blessings...TR
Many of my colleagues are either furloughed or moved into other positions within healthcare. I am scheduled for the next level to be furloughed, with all of the elective surgeries canceled or people out of work and can’t have surgeries, you will begin to see many healthcare organizations closing or closing certain parts. My company is a mid sized healthcare organization and we are loosing 100 thousand dollars a day, we can’t afford to remain solvent.
Trusting that we will rapture out of here soon. If not, trying to think of next steps as well. I would agree with you, depending on current government for the promised “we’ll take care of you” monies is not very comforting, but God knows your heart, Psalm 37:25 “I have been young, and now am old, yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken or his children begging for bread.”
Well, I have to take comfort in the knowing this to shall pass and we will soon be home to glory via a trumpet! Remember, in John 16:33 “Jesus said, I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” I have to hold on to scripture —- I memorize a lot, my daughter puts verses all around the house, keeping Gods word ever in front of me, is what I have found As the only thing that gives me comfort. :prayer-hands:
