My heart trusted in Him, and I Am helped! TR Watchman, Be angry and sin not! My husband, who is awesome, has not had a decent paying job in over 8 years, talk about difficult! I have to keep praying God carries him. We buried one church, as the denomination asked him to basically be a “hospice” pastor, helping to close churches that were dead or on life support needing to pull the plug ... how is that helpful to the heart and mind? Especially after being a successful missionary for 15 years. These passages, Watchman35, are not transcribed from a high horse, rather from a compassionate and heavy heart for your situation. I pray for your spirit, and for the peace of God to return soon for you, somehow. Job 1:5 – “…and [Job] would rise early in the morning and offer burnt offerings according to the number of them all. For Job said, “It may be that my children have sinned, and cursed God in their hearts.” Thus Job did continually.” Job 1:20-22 – “Then Job arose and tore his robe and shaved his head and fell on the ground and worshiped. And he said, “Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked shall I return. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.” In all this Job did not sin or charge God with wrong.” Job 2:9-10 – “Then his wife said to him, “Do you still hold fast your integrity? Curse God and die.” But he said to her, “You speak as one of the foolish women would speak. Shall we receive good from God, and shall we not receive evil?” In all this Job did not sin with his lips.” Job 13:15 – “Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him..." Job 40:6-8 – “Then the LORD answered Job out of the whirlwind and said: “Dress for action like a man; I will question you, and you make it known to me. Will you even put me in the wrong? Will you condemn me that you may be in the right? Luk 22:31 -- "And the Lord said, Simon, Simon, behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat..." Eph 6:12 – “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." Who knows, Watchman? For what it’s worth, we sincerely love you. Watchman, I have not experienced the kind of distress you are under, but there are two things God seems to like to do. One, is that He provides at the last possible moment. I do not understand this except that through the fires of trial He tests out faith and refines us. Secondly, I also know this to be true, that He has a job for you but if you find employment "today" you will not have the job that He is working out for you. Some things take time even for God to maneuver into place. He is wanting you to trust Him as you walk blindly in this dark world. Faith is everything to Him. I cannot say that I understand it, but I know it to be true. It is by faith that we are saved through Jesus Christ. No other methodology. Only faith. I pray that our Father will provide for your needs and to strengthen your faith, which He gives to us in the first place. I also pray that His Spirit of peace will rest upon you. Hang in there, brother! God will provide! Update: Still no job. Job application tracker up to line 83. Soul feels brutally assaulted (and I choose those words carefully). Just had my best job lead dry up today. Crushed me, again. Just crawled into bed and sobbed. Have no idea what God expects me to do or what he wants from me. Trying to do the right thing and find a job to support my family, but my experience of Him is that He continues to stand indifferently on the sidelines withholding His help and favor. And this all comes on the heels of a brutal Father's Day. With my experience again this year, I think I can say I officially hate Father's Day. Dealing with the seemingly never-ending legacy of the pain from my earthly father's rejection/abandonment, the pain from a 10-minute, awkward, superficial, and obligatory phone call from my grown daughter (for whom I poured out my life in trying to be everything to her that my dad was not for me), and the pain of great disappointment towards my heavenly Father in refusing to respond to my cries for help. Yep, pretty sure I won't be getting that call from Hallmark for the posterchild gig extolling the virtues of Father's Day. What a cruel and painful world...
I am extremely thankful for my job. It and the Lord have carried us thru, caring for my Dad until his death, my mom still lives with us, at one point my daughter and her family lived with us for three years because of unforeseen circumstances. So believe me, I totally get it, many people do! But, truly, it’s not about you, it’s about the Savior and His power to keep us! Praying for you to be angry and sin not! God loves you with an unbelievable love, rest in His righteous, steadfast, unchanging love. :prayer-hands: I do not mean to offend, but speaking truth to you! Focus on Whom you believe in and don’t let the prince of this world steal your joy! :prayer-hands:
