Watchman, Geri, & TR — about 6 yrs ago my dad died and my oldest brother, who claims to be a believer told my mom that we are now dead to him because the inheritance was robbed from him....there was no inheritance, my dad left my mom penniless, except for the house, we had to buy it all over again and take out extra so we all would have a place to live. I’ve had no word from him in all this time, he lives 15 min away, won’t take calls, sent card back. We heard thru my other brother and my son that my sister- in- law recently died from CA, we sent flowers, but nothing. Such hate is not from God, it is a cancer that grows and kills, we pray for him, so very sad. The verse is very true, within the church and in the later days ... Luke 12:53 “They will be divided, father against son and son against father, mother against daughter and daughter against mother, mother-in-law against her daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law.” Many families experience such — it is hurtful and from satan... God said in 1 John 2:11 “But whoever hates his brother is in the darkness and walks in the darkness, and does not know where he is going, because the darkness has blinded his eyes.” 1 John 3:11. “We know that we have passed out of death into life, because we love the brothers. Whoever does not love abides in death.” So just keep praying for the loved ones ... he who is faithful shall see the wonders of God. :prayer-hands: First week of the fourth month in being without a job since I was laid off for Covid on April 3rd. My job application spreadsheet tracker is now up to line 96. Where are You Lord????????? What are You doing????? I would love to feel Your arm around my shoulder and Your reassuring voice telling me You've got this. I sense neither. And so I live in that waaaaaaay tooooooo familiar place of having to rely on my spirit to defend Your faithfulness to my soul, where my emotions struggle horribly to trust You rather than accuse You. Thankfully, we have food to eat, a roof over our heads, my wife still has her job, and all bills are currently paid, with the exception of my mortgage, which has been placed on Covid-19 forbearance for the last three months and probably for the next three after I make a phone call later today. This is so stinking uncomfortable for me. At times, it truly feels like a form of mental torture because I cannot get my emotions to trust the Lord. CANNOT WAIT TO BE DONE WITH ME AND MY CARNAL NATURE!! Prayer appreciated. We lift this brother Lord and bring his needs before your throne! Help him go through this storm, or be Raptured from it! Life is indeed a great gift, but a trying one at times. You placed us here and have given tools and instruction to succeed. Truth be known Lord, we need your assistance in all that we attempt to do! That said, it is for this cause we lift our prayers towards Heaven, that by the hearing of the ear and heart, You would respond! Praying that You respond Lord lovingly and quickly! Override any spiritual loopholes, and break all barriers that would prevent Your mighty provision! In Jesus' glorious name we pray! TR Hi there. Here's an update and prayer request for this morning. As you know, I have been out of work since April 3 (Covid layoff). I have a job interview for a short-term contract PM position this morning at 1030 CDT. I am very conflicted in that I am not even sure how to pray anymore. I am still dealing with disappointment, pain, confusion and anger towards the Lord because I thought He had communicated to me several years ago that the job I was just laid off from would be my last job before the Church raptured out (as in I would still be working at that job when the harpazo took place). Now, I don’t know whether I just missed God with my own thoughts, or had some bad pizza, or if I am now engaging in a futile exercise of unbelief to try to find work (have applied to over 100 positions now). Meanwhile, the clock is ticking on unemployment benefits. I MUCH prefer working to earn a living, as opposed to drawing what feels to me to be a handout (at less than half my previous salary). My wife would be quite concerned if I just stopped looking for work and said the Lord told me to do that. Please pray for peace, favor, wisdom and God’s will to be done on this interview. I have asked the Lord to give me a job with a start date on the other side of the harpzao, if I did hear Him correctly and I have worked my last job on this side of glory. Being crushed to dust yet again by the Potter to be refashioned. Ugghhh!! May He graciously answer you prayers and supply your needs! You are weak, but He is strong! May His marvellous provision surprise you! You are greatly loved and cherished by Him! You can doubt many things, never doubt His love! TR I would call it being crushed by the world. My husband lost his job too. I am hoping like you that God rescues us soon. Prayers going up for you Watchman and for your husband, Blue. If we are still here after Sept I will have to start looking for work myself and in the back of my mind are the dreaded thoughts of ... “I don’t want to have to wear a mask all day at work let alone be required to have the vaccination shot”. Praying we are all rescued and taken home SOON before all this comes to pass. Keep the faith and keep being thankful. Jesus loves His children and promises to provide our daily needs. :amen: Thank you for the prayers. The interview seemed to go pretty well from my perspective. Of course, you never know for sure what is going on in the interviewer's mind ("...Can't wait to get done with this guy. Well, once we got the Zoom up and running, it was already 1045. Interview ended up lasting until 1130, when the main guy had a hard stop. Again, it seemed like it went fairly well from my perspective. Just the fact that it lasted longer than scheduled is usually a pretty good indicator. Anyway. Should know something more hopefully by end of the week. Position would start in August, preferably early August from his perspective, but could end up being mid-August before they can get through all the hiring hoops. That would give me enough time to have the job sitting there for me, but still be raptured before I ever actually work a day on it, thereby aligning with what I thought I heard from the Lord several years that I would not have another job before we were raptured. Time will tell. I'll keep you posted. It is nice just to have a job possibility on my list that I don't have a reason to scratch out. Oh, and if we happen to meet in the air or around the throne before I communicate my next update here on RITAN, you can safely assume the point has become eternally moot. Just sayin'. Maranatha!!! Update: As of today, I am up to 150 job applications in just over four months of being unemployed. Smh. Have followed up on 99% of all leads that have come to me from a multitude of sources. At the end of July, I had six active leads I was working. As of the news today, all but one of those leads have become closed doors, and the one that remains theoretically open felt like a long-shot to me from the beginning, so I don't hold out much hope on that one. Many of the jobs that I felt like I was well-qualified for and being given serious consideration for have become doors slammed in my face for a variety of reasons. The person who was going to leave to create the opening decided to stay. The position has now been placed on hold indefinitely. The position has now been filled internally. The hiring manager decided we did not need the position after all. We originally planned to higher three project managers, but a decision was made to reduce that to 1. And on and on and on it goes. I almost have to laugh at this point--at least for the moment all the tears have already been cried. It could not be more painfully clear to me that God is absolutely choosing to keep me from finding a job as a project manager. There is no other explanation in my mind and I cannot tell you why. I told Him if He is trying to teach me some sort of lesson, He needs to help me understand what that is because right now I have no idea what I am suppose to learn. It just seems like pointless pain and futility. I literally walk around the house alone some days, screaming at the Lord at the top of my lungs asking Him what He is supposedly accomplishing by this torment? Meanwhile, as a man trying desperately to find work to provide for my family, the rejection and sense of failure brutally assaults my soul, while my God sits on the sidelines. I have no idea what God wants me to do?!? And just to make things even more difficult and painful, now I am fighting painful sciatica and debilitating headaches from my neck into the lower part of my head, which is making it harder to get out on the street corner and walk my rapture warning sign. The longer I am here on this planet, the more I hate it and long to be removed from it!! I wanted to finish this life strong and victorious for the Lord, running hard right through the finish line. Feels now like God has determined I should finish it crushed, bloodied, and crawling to make it to the end. Just for the record, Lord, it is not even remotely close to what I would have chosen! I can't tell you how much I hate the curse! Sure I hope I don't run into Adam or Eve! TR
Was supposed to start at 1030 and last until 1100. Well, the recruiter screwed up the details, and instead of the straight phone interview it was supposed to be, it was changed last minute to a video Zoom. That sent me scurrying into the closet last minute to pull out a work shirt to throw over my t-shirt. LOL. I did my best Shaun Hannity imitation, with my dress shirt in the camera while wearing shorts and flip flops off camera. LOL.
