Thank you all for your prayers. Trying to stay positive and in faith. Talking to recruiters, updating LinkedIn profile, submitting online applications. Feel very bifurcated. Rapture schizophrenia. Focusing on finding a job like it's this huge priority, which it is if we are going to be here awhile. Not much savings to draw down from. Asking God to save us before our financial wagon plunges over the cliff that sets just a little further on down the hill that I feel like we are careening down today. And yet, in the midst of the tyranny of the seemingly urgent, I am still aware that His :whistle: trumpet could blow at any moment. Yep. No problems in my life that the rapture would not fix in a moment, the mere twinkling of an eye. Guys...I am really, really struggling today. Sitting here literally weeping as I type, dealing with so much anger at the Lord for allowing my life to be so unnecessarily hard...yet again. I just spent somewhere between 1-2 hours online trying to figure out and jump through the hoops to get unemployment. After about 90 minutes of trying to figure out a non-intuitive, poorly designed, poorly functioning program/website, it dumped me out and I have no idea if I have even completed the steps necessary to draw unemployment. I wanted to pick up my lap top and throw it with all my might through the front window of my office, while screaming F-bombs at t.he TOP OF MY LUNGS!! Great man of God that I am. Pathetic! I am so done with this world and trying to survive in it. Please Lord, if You are not coming soon, then just come get me. I want to come home NOW!!!!!!!! Woke up thinking of this song this morning--get me out of this unsafe, unkind, unreliable world... I just want to be with God where I am safe, loved, and free to be who He created me to be in glorifying Him. I feel none of those things today. Sorry for your pain. I will continue to lift you to the Lord in prayer. I don't really know what to say other than, when we are down to nothing, God is up to something. May Almighty God give you His peace. Ive lost my job as well but I am fortunate in many ways. I pray that God finds you what you need.
