Sorry to hear that Terry. I am praying for you. Hello family, I need some comfort and prayers. I don't remember if I ever mentioned these things but over the years, I got traumatized many times by health care workers. once, I had to have surgery. that was the first time for me and naturally, i was very scared. I was also alone with no support. a nurse hated me (I think it was racism, I felt it from the way she was talking to me the day before) on the morning of the surgery, I was so scared. I was looking outside the window, not wanting time to go on and the sky to get lighter. every sound outside my room was very scary. then when it was time, that nurse almost broke my door down (she was a very big woman which made it scarier) and shouted: "hey you, get up! It's going to get serious now" other times, I was treated so roughly by several health care workers at a hospital (and they also scared me so much by the things that they were saying to me), that twice, I ended up going into shock. another time, I had a serious accident and I was handled very roughly in the ER. I had a head injury which is always distressing, I also couldn't remember a lot of stuff which is very traumatic. no one comforted me, I was just handled roughly by the medical staff. I could go on, but I will stop here. for the longest time, I only see my MD and ND. I don't go to hospitals, specialists,................I always dread something coming up that might leave me with no choice but having to see a specialist or go to a hospital........................ that is why if I ever get sick, even if it is something not serious, I start having anxiety. I had to have a root canal in August and I had a lot of problems with serious anxiety. I kept seeing that nurse almost breaking my door down and shouting "it's going to get serious now" and I started thinking: I am having a root canal, that is serious.....................and my mind always wonders to worse case scenario. I have to do a CT scan on Tuesday and the anxiety attacks are starting, please pray for me. thank you so much siblings Praying for you Heidi Prayer sent up Prayers!
