Boulder - I was the ministry leader and Oregon State rep for Celebrate Recovery. Since its a Christ centered recovery program you have less of the shenanagans that happen in NA and AA. Its still a 12 step program and we follow the same process - but Jesus is the center of the program. There are CR programs all over the world. Praying that you find freedom through recovery. Check out www.celebraterecovery.com Thanks Kolleen, Malissa and Kent When it rains it pours. Sheena has slept with several of my friends. Its been devastating. Panic Attacks are Full Blown. Please prayer that I might receive some grace @boulder95 Jesus died for everyone, but you gotta get that grace. Read 1Corinthians 15:3-4 and memorize it. Pray to God and Jesus and tell them that you believe those verses(1Cor 15:3-4) to be the truth. Only our Lord Jesus can give you rest. You're going through a full-on attack by the enemy to trap you in a state of anger, rejection, humiliation, condemnation, unforgiveness and bitterness. As hard as it seems right now, I strongly urge you to forgive her -- she's not the real enemy. Ask the Lord for the strength to do it. You may have to forgive her multiple times -- even daily. Find sincere Christian people who can stand by you in this difficult time. The Lord will point them out to you if you ask Him. Your battle is not against flesh and blood. Your battle is to find rest in Christ despite the circumstances. Even when you fail, know that He will never leave you or forsake you. He loves you more than you know, and He knows exactly what you are going through. Run to Him. The devil wants to take you out or at least neutralise you, but your weapons are far superior. Submit yourself to God, resist the devil and he will flee (James 4:7). I repeat, your battle is to find rest in Christ; from there everything will start to improve. You're a smart guy, Boulder, and you are a threat to the enemy. That's why the attack is so intense. Father God has amazing plans for you. Just take it day by day and stay as close to the Lord as you can. The speed of your recovery and turn-around will depend on you making a conscious decision to find rest in Him. "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest". You will get to the other side. Fix your eyes and your heart on Him. We're praying for you and Father God hears our prayers. Keep going brother. Boulder- My prayers are with you. We don't know everything from the Bible, but it is a fascinating Bible. Study the Bible, not just reading. I think lesfeldick.org is an excellent Bible study. 
