Lots of good Christian information here. Ny prayers are with you Boulder. You are and have been in my prayers, Boulder. Boulder, is it possible the Lord has brought you to this place for you to know the truth that ultimately sets you free? Is it likely God has shown you these things, to make it possible for you to choose to walk away so He can show you Another Way? Would you be willing to let go of all, and whoever satan is using to keep you down, affected and trapped? Is it possible God wants you to walk away from a painful past in order to go forward in to His design alone, for your life. This doesn't mean God deserts your family or friends. But by walking away to Him, He can deliver each one from the turmoil, heartache and merry-go-round that has kept you and them "under it," not "above it." The devil gives no life, but God gives life everlasting. He wants to bring you up and out of satans darkness, in to the sunshine of His love and blessings, where His ways are higher. A big step forward would be to choose to be released from those who've hurt you in life, past and present. We all have choices. You're not responsible for others choices, but only for yours. Let those who have affected your life to the negative, go! Pray for them, but entrust them to God where He can bring them out of the darkness too in His timing and in the way only He know's will work for them. Entrust yourself to the Lord and the walk He has for you! Choose to lay down what is behind, on order to rise up and walk with God; not looking backward. He knows what is best for you. There is so much He wants to share with you, guide you in to, give you and fill you with. He wants to remove the darkness that has overshadowed your life and joy. No one can lay down the past and choose once and for all to go forward but you. Give Him the burdens and attacks the enemy uses against you. Trust Him alone with your life ahead. Let go, let God! All those who have caused you hurt - lay them down for the Lord to take up to also heal and make whole. I believe trust and choosing to move forward is the key for you now. Trust Him for yourself, and trust Him with the lives of all others you know. Walk away and in to His arms. He will bless you as you choose Him above all others. It is ok to "walk alone," because He is there for you to lean on and rely on; giving you the strength to move further ahead after each step you take. He is the only one who knows what you need to rise above. If we try to hang on to things that destroy life, after God has exposed what hinders our lives, we may very well miss the GOOD He so desires to give to us. Our Choice is everything! And only we can individually choose to walk away from who and what is unhealthy and destroys our walk. 
