Thank you, Kolleen! the kicking walls sound started right after i wrote last time and lasted until 12:30AM but no yelling...i laid in bed shaking with my eyes open and every muscle tensed up while in a ball saying please help, God in my heart over & over...after it stopped i fell asleep for 4 hours before hubby woke up...we are going to buy a camera or 2... if i can get a little more sleep at some point today, i will probably call or go to the local family services shelter place... hubby isn't scared of this guy breaking into our home since we are well armed, but i am...he figures something will at least be done to our vehicles if cops come, but maybe we could get it on video...(we have too much stuff stored in garage to put cars in)... we just want to do what God leads us too and still aren't sure what that is so don't feel right to act yet...i really think the neighbor house across from these people must see and hear so very much that it would be undeniable...i think we will end up calling 911 at some point when we are both here...wish we'd already gone to a church and then could talk w/ pastor and maybe there would be members with good connections/info who could help us thank you all, may our good Father bless each of you for your kindness shown to us ps i recommend listening to that program my hubby heard on radio yesterday- i listened to the rest this morning- there is always hope in Christ Jesus! did an online chat with an advocate at a family crisis center in town and they asked if I'd talked with the abused about the situation, when i said i hadn't even met her they said to call 911 if i think she or we are in danger. last nite i did not do what i said i was going to- i did not read the scriptures God had lead me to the day before...i didn't spend time in His word this morning either...i have become so focused on the problem that fear was getting it's grip tighter and tighter on me...i tried multiple times to go to sleep today, but a huge tractor was right behind our house and extremely loud and no matter how incredibly exhausted i was i couldn't fall asleep...after talking with hubby on phone briefly this evening and praying specifically for sleep i was able for about an hour...i listened to C. Stanley tonite about the Holy Spirit is our Helper and then about our obligation to share the gospel...i think God is telling me that i'm too quick to lose focus on Him and fall easily into anxiety as well as that i had my priorities quickly changed from thinking of this move as an adventure with Him that would include ministering to the lost in some way and being a light in darkness and being involved in what God is doing -to concerns for our own comfort- first with house hunting turning into such disappointments and then with all of this craziness after deciding to be content of the blessing of this place...But through all of this, He is stirring a desire in me to love and serve Him by helping & loving others- there are shelters and children's home etc here that I think He may lead me to volunteer with...maybe not until after we move somewhere else, but He has sparked a passion in my heart! I'd confessed recently my lack of love for fellow Believers- (not wanting to go to church and get to know people and feeling the disappointments of never feeling like really connecting with anyone in past town we lived in - even in churches- and not feeling much for anybody the most recent times we'd gone.) I was very recently convicted by the verse in John about the love of God not being in us if we don't love each other put the fear of God in me, but then I felt like He helped me understand that it's not something we muster up and do, it's something that He does through us- to me it makes more sense that if the love of God is not in us, we won't be able to love each other with real love because it's His love- unconditional, supernatural- it's Him in us! We just have to abide in Him, take a step of obedience in trust and He will help us...anyway, He has restored my desire to share other Believers' burdens in prayer and comfort in friendship/listening/just being there with them! ...but the desire that was not there even after acknowledging the need/responsibility to really be involved with other true Christ followers, came through remembering y'all and all I have loved about the fellowship here I've had off and on for years and all of the support from "listening" people here, encouragement and prayers from genuine lovers of our Lord and His love I've experienced through y'all! I'm excited that God is with me always and I do not need to fear next steps, just be still and know that He is God, I am His and He will provide all I need to do and be anything He desires of me to do with Him for His glory, the good of others and my own good. Please continue to pray for us to know God's wisdom and have His courage to act on it in this terrible situation...i'm going to pray about reporting to child/adult protective services- their website says this: "When a report of child abuse or neglect is made, an initial assessment is made to determine if Child Protective Services should become involved. If the report meets the criteria for agency involvement, the case is investigated by a social worker or special investigator. Law enforcement may also investigate if a joint investigation is warranted. If it is determined that a child is unsafe, then a recommendation is made by Child Protective Services or law enforcement to the court regarding what action should be taken regarding the child's safety." And it has the same phone number for reporting for vulnerable adults in potential abuse- which may not apply here (i think it's more like mentally ill or elderly?) but anyway- they could tell us if they can help and just handle it all for us or if they need us to just call the police during an episode. God bless each of you who have taken time and energy to read my ramblings and say a prayer for our family and these people near us who are suffering &/or spiritually dead and destined for hell. We are to love even our enemies while still hating evil and the wicked ways of humans acting on their lusts of the flesh. That doesn't mean we ignore or stick our heads in the sand and pretend all is well...we stand firm in our faith and occupy in whatever way the Lord leads by His strength. it’s something that He does through us- I think we will be astonished at the Bema Seat Judgement at how much we are rewarded for what HE did through us! It sounds like God is using this situation to mold you into the person He wants you to be. God uses difficult circumstances to create change in us. We do not change willingly. Blessings I can see are, that whatever is going on there is being exposed, and out of that God has moved on your heart toward new ministry. He does not want any woman or child - or husband - to be in any abusive threatening destructive situation. And if this is some sort of child abuse, aren't our hearts breaking for children today for the attacks now on their very lives from so many directions! If you are led to minister to children especially in these evil days, just to help some would mean so much. They are so innocent and helpless. It is so hard to see what they are experiencing in life today, and I wonder where the parents are who should have their childrens protection as their highest priorities. Instead too often we are seeing children being handed over to such immorality. May the Lord lead you to just where He wants you to be! :rose: Agree with every prayer that has been prayed in this situation! Indeed we must remember that in the time of the flood even the children perished! Believing the Lord will accommodate the young and innocent in heaven! I still don't fully understand what the Lord sometimes allows, except to present an indictment against those who chase after evil and wickedness! Yet living in the age of grace may the Lord be gracious!!! TR
Continued prayers for your family and a resolution to this situation.
