Im very sorry for your experience surrounding your mother's passing Derrick. Please don't blame yourself, you did all that you could and what you felt confident in at the time and you were thinking of her benefit and well being. When our dearest ones go on before us, the grief is real.....just try to focus on where she IS and your soon reunion. :rose: Thanks so much, yes there was a lot of what if I had done this or that different in the beginning, but after the initial shock and grief wore off I found a lot of peace. Truly I don’t know how the unbelievers do it, because if I did not have my faith it would have wrecked me, but we don’t grieve as the unbelievers grieve. And yes, I focus on where she is now. We all have relatives that we think are probably ok, but maybe we are not sure and we wonder if they made it - my mom was not one of them. I KNOW for sure, she had such a big faith and loved the Lord so much I know she is rejoicing with Him now. She as you say is in a way better place! Know just look forward to the reunion! TR It is my belief that in situations a critical as this one with your mom that the Lord would have laid it heavy on your heart to give her the ivermectin if that was in His will but since He did not I think it’s safe to say it wasn’t what He wanted to do. I am sorry for the temporary loss of your mother and the pain and grief you have endured. We both know that God will use it for good but that doesn’t really soften the blow any. My the Lord keep you in His peace!
