My heart has been feeling more heavy since yesterday. My laptop is not working well. a few days ago, it took me 4 hours to finally be able to long in, yesterday it took me over an hour. I was at a networking event for job search it cut out on me and I couldn't attend anymore. My workplace said: they are assessing the staffing situation and will be in touch with us in the next few weeks. So they are keeping us hanging there for the next few weeks still on unpaid leave? An MPP (Member of Provincial Parliament ) keeps putting flyers about vax clinics outside my door. the first time I had the flyer at my door, I felt a bit threatened and was scared a bit. In one month, they put 2 flyers outside my door, sent me an email and called me about the vax clinics) I emailed the MPPs office told them this is harrassment. the restrictions started easing up again a few days ago and I feel that we can breathe a bit more easily. then I found anohter flyer from the same MPPs office about a vax clinic (when restrictions are starting to ease up, they are still harrasssing us) I put a large note outside my door saying no more flyers from the MPPs office, I walked out of my place today and saw that somebody tore my note. that can't be the super or his wife. they have seen it and I don't think they will do anything. It is probably kids in the buidling or teenagers............I was very upset and put up another note, higher on my door to make it harder for smaller kids to reach it (if it were small kids) and put much more tape around it to make it harder to remove I am so weary of this world. My heart is really heavy and I can't put up with the way I have been feeling much longer. Heidi, can you begin to hold a small prayer group of believers weekly in your home, to come together to first worship the Lord, then petition Him in all these things, and for the troubles all around that are concerning you and them? Praying for God's interventions, regarding whatever is on each of your hearts - for change, for His will, for His removal of harassment and wherever the enemy is working, praying for Gods will and for His direction, that He would deal with all that is wrong, to make things right in each of yours and their circumstances? Giving opportunity also to pray whatever else He lays on your hearts to pray... You seem to be involved with various groups, but this would be just for one or two or a handful of saved friends in your home (or anothers), to commit to prayer together in faith and hope, for Gods encouragement support, and comfort that you (all) are needing. Good advice. Thank you Will work on this I noticed I feel much better outside the apartment. I am starting to think that it is not just the fact that it is nice to be out and about and have lots of fresh air. There could be something in the apartment Kolleen I read your message again. Hard to read on the phone. You mention holding prayer meetings. I thought people praying in my apt. Yes I will try to organize that Thank you :bible :amen: :bible I don't have a laptop so I couldn't write that email to the psychic lady She keeps trying to reach me and I feel awkward. I told her I will call her today . I still haven't She seemed to be genuinely worried and said she is happy I am ok after I texted her yesterday. I had been quiet for at least 2 days. I purchased a new laptop. It was a lot of work looking at different ones, specifications.....one laptop is OK but it does not have another important specification.... I left a store and decided to walk to another one nearby . I was looking at more laptops, I asked the sales person some questions and she kept telling me all the info is next to the product , just read I called my brother who was probably getting tired too but never said a thing. I told him I need his help because the sales person is not answering my questions and just wants me to figure it out by myself The lady started almost shouting at me: I did not say you have to figure it out by yourself, don't tell lies Her voice sounded like she was chastising me for telling lies. She repeated 2 or 3 times and distracted me from my conversation with my brother My brother said: she probably knows nothing about laptops I finally bought one but I was almost a nervous wreck at the end. Hoping to set it up soon and start working on it I checked my phone and my psychic friend texted saying: you did not call and had a sad looking emo ji face I told her politely that too much is going on and I need some space She said she understands What do you think of what happened? I had a job interview on Tuesday with an organization that I worked for years ago. It was for an administrative admin. It's a good organization. Things could have changed, however, a colleague did tell me recently that it is a good employer. I emailed the lady who was going to interview me telling her my laptop was not working and I will have to log into the zoom meeting from my phone. I logged into the meeting a couple of minutes early and when 2 ladies came on, I could not hear them. I hit a button that was supposed to connect me to the audio and turned up the volume. I could still not hear the ladies. I told them I am sorry I am having problems with my phone, I will try again. One of the ladies called me and told me this interview has been cancelled, they need to move on with other interviews. If they don't find the suitable candidate, they will call me. that was before 1:10 pm (my interview starts at 1 pm), they would not even give me a few minutes to figure out the audio and cancelled the interview. I was shocked. there was another position with that organization that I was really interested in getting but could not get the chance to apply cause my laptop was not working. I thought I would apply after the interview from my phone ( I might be able to do that) I thought to myself if I did not get the position and I got at least the admin one, another chance will come up in that organization in the future for the job that I really cared about. Look what happened! I wanted to say a prayer for God to close doors that I should not go through but I don't remember actually praying that. I don't know whether to blame myself for not working harder on securing another laptop to interview from or that position, organization is somewhere where I should not be. I am not sure what to think. One of the ladies in the meeting looked really mean. would appreciate your thoughts. thank you
