Love you all my Ritan family :bible :rose: Today was the last day my manager was at work. Feel like my safety blanket is gone. ( I know that's a silly way of putting it) She told me I can stay in touch and I can even ask her work related stuff if I needed, but to be careful not to mention her name and say she told me so because she is not the manager anymore. She got a job at a big church. I am going to connect with her in 2 or 3 weeks and ask her if she wants to go out for lunch. Whenever I mentioned to one of my colleagues that I want to leave my job, they tell me to think twice because you won't easily find a manager like that. They were right so I stayed. Now that she has left, I can tell her that I need to leave that job too because of the stress level and maybe we can chat about it. It is better to find a place of peace as much as possible, than work in a stress filled environment. May the Lord lead you to the doors He can open for you to walk through. He knows your frame and He watches over you. "I will instruct you (Heidi) and teach you in the way which you should go. I will guide you with My eye." Ps 32 "And your ears shall hear a word behind you saying, this is the way, walk in it..." Is 30 "In You O Lord do I put my trust; let me never be put in to confusion...for God is not the author of confusion, but of peace" Ps 71 1 Cor 14 Please pray for me. I am having serious anxiety. Heidi for so many years I went through tremendous trials and tribulations and I stood firmly on the following verse and it alone is what got me through the storm: Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for us. 1 Peter 5:7 And in the larger context of 1 Peter 5:8-9 - know that you're not alone in these times of trouble and its nothing but the enemy who is scrambling as he knows his time is limited: 8 Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. I found myself on my knees so many times praying "Father God I know you won't give me anything that you haven't equipped me to handle and this challenge is something that is beyond my capability to cope with. I lay <name the problem I was struggling with> at your feet Father and ask you to take the burden off my shoulders. In Jesus might name I pray" Every time I put 1 Peter 5:7 into play my storms cleared and I was able to move forward. The storms that used to rage in my life are no longer present. I get an occasional rain shower now and then but I pull out my arsenal of tools and lay down 1 Peter 5:7 as the first line of defense and those rain showers quickly pass. I have also gone from a mindset of "why me Lord?" to one of "Ok Lord, show me what you want to learn from this" - and that too has changed my outlook. What I've found over the past 20 years is that every storm / rain cloud that has come my way was a preparation to help so many others who are facing the same challenges. Without going through the storm I may not have been as powerful to help those in need. God is preparing you to help others my sister. 🙏🙏🙏He will meet you at the place of your need. Love in Christ💕💕 Thank you Kolleen, Terry, Todd and Melissa. Todd, thank you for the prayer. I was looking for prayers like that. I prayed it more than once. It was scary today. I had to call my doctor twice and a colleague who is a doctor. I was s little better, now I am not feeling well again. Will call the doctor again tomorrow. My doctor told me he had surgery with complications. He was away from work for over a months. (his absence also caused me anxiety cause he is available after hours for his patients and is a Cehristian) You are welcome Heidi -- its a great tool that is there for us to take ahold of. It is better to find a place of peace as much as possible, than work in a stress filled environment. May the Lord lead you to the doors He can open for you to walk through. He knows your frame and He watches over you. “I will instruct you (Heidi) and teach you in the way which you should go. I will guide you with My eye.” Ps 32 “And your ears shall hear a word behind you saying, this is the way, walk in it…” Is 30 “In You O Lord do I put my trust; let me never be put in to confusion…for God is not the author of confusion, but of peace” Ps 71 1 Cor 14 That's true, Kolleen. A place of peace is so much better. How hard it is to find it in the big city. I have been wanting to move to a small city for the longest time, but I haven't for many reasons. There are more opportunities here, more things to do. I was told it can get lonely in a small city. Here we have cinema's, many restaurants and coffee shops, .................. Another good thing about my job is not just my manager but the other managers and all my colleagues. They are all good people and they are very supportive. it is HR and upper management that caused us a lot of problems with the mandates, but the other managers, supervisors,...................most of them are very good people and compassionate. When things got so much worse in the world with so much evil around us, going to a place with so many good people in it, made me feel safe and that this world has not totally gone crazy yet. Many things I have to do are stressful and some clients are difficult. However, there are some nice and polite clients whom I like. 
9 Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.
