need to share

Hello siblings,

I need to share what happened the last few days.

First, thank God for Ritan and that I can come here and share stuff and talk to sisters and brothers.

My manager has resigned. she is an an amazing manager. My colleagues are planning a potluck and want to get her a gift certificate. I was so busy the last few days that I did not read properly the posts from my colleagues regarding our plans. Then I noticed the amount we had to etransfer to get her a gift certificate. When you add up all the donations, it will be a $450 plus the food for the potluck. That is quiet a bit of money, I posted that this is too much money. Other colleagues said "we already agreed on this.........." Anyway, in the end I said I will transfer the amount but nobody should be suggesting such amounts to be donated for the gift. I did apologize at the end. they said it's OK. I am doing the money transfer later tonight.

My super at the building has asked me for money several times. He said he is struggling financially and does not have enough food to it. I gave him $20 a few times to help out and said you can pay it back later. A few days later he says: I still didn't get my money, I can't pay it back.

then I tell him it's Ok he can do this or that for me. I end up having him do stuff for me instead of paying me back.

I arrived home today, there was a text message from him saying that he only needs $10 cause he does not have enough food. I called him and shouted away. ( too much stress at work, big donation for my manager, my super trying to make me feel sorry that he needs help............) I told him I can't keep giving him money and that he still owes me $50. I told him to never again ask me for money.

he is coming in to bring a new stove so it will be awkard to see him. I also hope he doesn't start harassing me or making my life uncomfortable in any way. I am shaking from being very tired and angry.

thank you for reading this.