One more thing … I was meek years ago … since then I learned to not let people push me around. The camp job ended Saturday afternoons and I would get a ride back home and then Sunday night we had to report back for another week. I should of just never returned but the reason I did return was … the whole idea of working there was a test of sorts. My mom said why not work at camp that way it will give you experience being away for college life which was 16 months later. So I was feeling like a failure when the weird abuse started happening. I wanted to prove I could finish that test. But I was failing near the end cause I couldn’t take it any longer and kept it bottled up and only saw self harming as the only way out. I regretted giving up my paper route … that paid me more … only had to work 2 hrs and had fun with no problems vs. working my tail off for peanuts and getting mental abuse besides? :wacko: But it did make me tougher to deal with the next trial and the next … its like climbing the ladder to the next level … God knows the entirety of our lives before we are even born. He knew you would go through these trials and He was right there with you through every one of them. And what I find so beautiful is that through it all you still love Him and you are still looking for His return moment by moment! If that isn’t an accomplished life then I don’t know what is! When I think of the fate of those poor Idaho college students over a month ago, I shudder to think how you were harassed and stalked Geri. Thanks to our dear Father, Lord and Savior for His, and the protection of His angels over you. You who love the Lord, hate evil! He preserves the souls of His saints; He delivers them out of the hand of the wicked. Ps 97:10 For you Heidi, Geri and every one of us ... Talking about people whom we are not sure if they are Christians or not.... Years ago, I got in touch with a missionary. he had a ministry for international students. They used to meet at his home but I never joined them. He messaged me 3 times on LinkedIn in the last month 1st message: I would like to know more about you. Are you a born again believer? Which church do you attend? 2nd message: I would like to meet you and pray with you. I don't have a car anymore. Do you have a car? you can come to my place for fellowship and prayer. 3rd message: I really want to meet you as soon as possible, call me at........... what do you think? I am ignoring him. Wonder if I should contact the church he used to be with and talk to someone, or should I just assume the worst and block him? I just checked his 2nd message on LinkedIn, it said: "which church do you attend? are you a born again believer baptized in Christ? " My doctor told me recently that he has been advising people to "assume the worst and stay safe"
