I've never done well with loss and I have literally drank everyone away from me. I'm literally by myself with my dog Utah. I finally admitted to be an alcoholic and have been going to AA but I still have weak times. Sunday I drank hard and it was the first day I met my mentor. I knew him he's very wealthy but he cheated on his spouse. Sheena returned to tell me she had cheated. I texted him and shamed him until he said he didnt want to be my mentor. I have counselor and AA has been great. I cant believe how God is thriving in the LBGT communities. The love the Lord in the LBGT AA groups I occasionally attend because they are close. I feel and know Im lost right now and dont know where to start again a christian. I told my son I didnt want to see him again. Im going to Ash Wed service at St Johns. Any prayers or suggestions on how I can get right again. I ask for forgiveness all of the time and ask the holy spirit to pray for me. I even reached out to my pastor drunk once and asked him to pray for me. I upset him and now he wont return my phone calls. I know the key is not drinking. I can never drink again. I also the principalities are fighting hard to pull me to the dark side. I would love it if there was a someone that would just pray with me for 5 minutes a day for the next 90 days until I get out of this nightmare. Praying for you Boulder. I would love it if there was a someone that would just pray with me for 5 minutes a day for the next 90 days until I get out of this nightmare. You got it, Boulder! Living the Christian life is not easy, especially when something like alcoholism is in the equation. Its a big burden. But succumbing to our struggles does not mean we are not saved. I have my own struggles that drag me down and it can be a real battle. The thing is no matter how many times we fall we simply must get back up again and move forward in Christ. He knows you better than you will ever know yourself and there is nothing you can do that will surprise Him. Just don't give up! Forgive yourself and reach out to Him again and again and again as many times as it take. Praying for you Boulder95. I think we all have our struggles. I have mine and there has been times I did not even feel worthy to be in this group. Hang in there. We are almost home. In the Church Age (Age of Grace) … a born again believer has these promises: Romans 8:35-39 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. John 10:27-30 My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me: And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand. My Father, which gave them me, is greater than all; and no man is able to pluck them out of my Father's hand. I and my Father are one.
Thank you thank you thank Sam, Yohanan and Perhaps Today. Please pray that last Monday was the last time I ever drink. Thank you 🙂 Thank you Geri Hi Boulder! I hear your pain on every level that you mentioned. Broken relationships, loneliness and feeling isolated bring such torment, stealing the walk of Peace God has for us. I would guess many of us know your pain through our own experiences in life. In that, we hurt with you because of them, and will be praying however the Lord leads. God hears! He knows exactly what you need in this, and my prayer for you is that His will be done in all that concerns you as you submit to His truth, guidance and trust that He loves you. He will never leave nor forsake you. I searched some and possibly this will give you personal encouragement as you walk out of this by His power and might working within you: The Plans He has for Me Remember Boulder, whatever the enemy has meant for evil, God will turn to good! “No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.” 1Cor 10 Praying for you too. My younger brother, whom I love very much, is and has struggled with the same thing. He is saved and has a very tender heart. I truly believe God is in control. In His timing He will give you victory over this. Love in Christ You’re on my prayer list Boulder 
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