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    Bsfc123
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    Hi all. I have not been posting here that much, I read here daily but just find myself not having much to say these days.

    Many of you have prayed for my wife and son and myself before, and it has really made a big difference. My wife is trying very hard to not be angry and anxious, she is trying to follow Christ. It is not perfect, but her effort is real and we are both praying about everything all the time. Thank you so much for your prayers.

    I am falling into despair lately with everything else and that is what I am asking for prayer for. I was forced out of my job in November and I have been on unemployment since that time. My son has been having horrible school anxiety since he started, he cries in the morning, gets awful headaches, he has some kind of social awkwardness that makes kids not really want to be friends with him and he always came out crying at the end of the day…I decided, I am going to homeschool him, and I am going to ask God to let me find a work at home position doing medical claims or technical support or whatever else is out there, so I can keep homeschooling him.

    So in November I took him out, and it is now April and I am still searching to no avail.As the months go by I realize that I may not find anything and that I may well have to stick him right back into school and all of that again. I mentioned it to him the other day and he started crying tears and begging me not to make him go back.

    The really scary part is, I have begun to just feel numb to all of it, totally detached. It is like my mind is shutting off to stop the stress. I feel like everything in my life has just been totally pointless,I have somehow ended up 40, unemployed, with a sweet little kid that I am trying to raise right but failing miserably. My wife is turning a corner and trying so hard, and the stress of my situation is making it harder on her.

    I am ashamed to say I think about dying alot. I think about Lisaleenie and Zophim and how they were so sick and so in pain, and yet they fought and fought, and I am so ashamed. I can quote Bible verses left and right and read great material and watch preachers and learn….And at the end of the day, I know I am the biggest failure of a Christian going. I want to tell people about the Gospel and make disciples like Christ taught, and them I think, what IS my testimony? I want to follow Jesus and I can’t. I feel like checking out most of the time, I feel like my wife and son would be better finding a new man once I am gone, a stronger and more successful man who can provide.

    I am so tired. And I know this is whiny and stupid but I don’t know how else to say it.

    #130166
    Mom of 2
    Mom of 2
    Participant

    I will pray for you, I am glad to hear your wife is trying. I, too, just want to go home at times.
    God bless you, my brother… :rose:
    Mom of 2

    We have this treasure in earthen vessels that the excellency of God's power may be of Him and not of us. 2 Cor. 4:7



    #130167
    Loz
    Loz
    Participant

    Prayers for you Bfsc, place your burdens on the Lord to resolve them for you.

    Loz :]

    Psalm 18:2
    The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.


    #130168
    Heather R
    Heather R
    Participant

    While I am not in your shoes, I did encounter similar feelings from my dad about worthlessness. He had a relatively long battle with cancer which included multiple surgeries and bouts with chemo. One of the surgeries resulted in him not being able to work anymore. My dad loved his job, and I think that was the hardest part of it all. Not only had he worked all his life and wasn’t comfortable not working, he had been a paramedic… a lifesaver. To him, it was kind of a double blow. Sometimes what we want is not what the Lord has in store for us.

    When he was finally ready to talk about his feelings, I couldn’t believe what I was hearing from him. While I understand the shock of having something so vital taken away, I explained to him what my outsider viewpoint was. My dad had the strongest testimony of anyone I have ever encountered. I mean, I could be biased :unsure: , but without going into graphic detail about the surgeries, let’s just say the last one was quite… extensive. I’ve since adopted the viewpoints that nothing in my life will ever be as bad as what he went through, and until I can find a time (which I never will) to say “things can’t get any worse”, then I think I’m probably doing okay. I take that outlook into every day, because if he could get through what he did, then I have no reason to ever complain. Not that we should compare ourselves to others, but in that case, it’s a good reminder of what others have to endure but the Lord has spared me from. It also makes me much more grateful.

    While I am not in the situation now, I’ve been in less-than-stellar places with family stuff back when I was married. Just know you’re not alone. Our Father does not expect, nor does He want, you to feel like you are alone. Even though it can be hardest to do in those times, it is all the more necessary that we turn to Him in those times.

    I can’t say what all of your testimony is, but I can tell you a part of it – endurance.

    Our Christian life is not always easy. Sometimes that is because of things around us. Sometimes that is part of our own doing. In my past, it’s mostly been my own doing. Lessons the Lord teaches us do not always have quick resolutions. Mine took years. Having come out the other side, I can look back and say I wouldn’t have changed any of it. It all made me who I am today.

    Please know that our Father would not allow you to go through something that, at the end of it all, wouldn’t benefit you somehow. He knows the future. We do not. As hard as things seem, just continue to trust that He has you and will never let you go. When things get tough, that’s when we need to lean on Him more. Try to be patient and wait for His responses and direction. The more we try to do things ourselves, the more we tend to fail.

    Hugs, brother. Your thoughts and feelings are neither whiny nor stupid. We are always here for you :rose:

    Romans1:16 For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek. 17 For therein is the righteousness of God revealed from faith to faith: as it is written, The just shall live by faith.
    #130170
    Tender Reed
    Tender Reed
    Participant

    Indeed when we are hurting for whatever reason, or filled with disappointments, we can’t help but become myopic. But we must all realize that were we to leave, there would be a heartfelt void in this world.

    May the Lord God minister to you all in body, soul & spirit. May this season of challenges turn into a season of rest and rejoicing!

    Heavenly rewards are fine, but am praying that you all experience the glory of His deep and personal love for you all, here and now as well. May the Lord speak a rebuke against any curses and strategies set against you, and speak love and blessings into your lives.

    Remind the Lord of the brokenness and need that you presently encounter, and remind your heart and spirit of His great power and love. But refrain from grumbling, and rather train your heart in gratitude. Give Him thanks in all things throughout each day. Speak His name aloud, and cover your house and life in the mantle of His wings. Speak unto Him in truth and love!!! He can take it. Rather He waits for it.

    Bear your soul both good and bad before the Lord, then invite His compassionate heart to be manifest as only He can.

    May you all bathe in His glorious blessings great & small, until He calls us home. As you pour yourself out, He will pour Himself into you!!! Be not angry with the Lord, but be as like a prophet for yourself and your family! He is mindful of your tears & your frames. Approach Him with humility rather than with shame.

    TR


    #130174
    David R
    David R
    Moderator

    I am so tired. And I know this is whiny and stupid but I don’t know how else to say it.

    You said it quite well, and in no way did it sound whiny and stupid.

    It’s a long, difficult journey through our lives. We look at others who have gone before us and have left us a legacy of memories. At places there are comparisons we make to ourselves, and lessons we may learn. Still, each person’s story is his own.

    You may feel you haven’t done enough. That’s something we all struggle with at times. How much would be “enough,” anyway? The best any of us can do is to take the opportunity each day to show others love and to help them to know life is worth it.

    May God bless you richly.

    My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the Lord;
    my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God. Psalm 84:2


    #130178

    Barry
    Participant

    I pray for God’s peace for you, brother.

    God loves you and understands your problem far better than you or anyone else. I don’t know how or when, but I know he’s the answer to all problems. I hope He grants you some relief soon.

    Don’t label yourself as being a failure as a Christian, because God only sees Jesus when he looks at you.

    John 6:67 Then said Jesus unto the twelve, Will ye also go away? 68 Then Simon Peter answered him, Lord, to whom shall we go? thou hast the words of eternal life. 69 And we believe and are sure that thou art that Christ, the Son of the living God.

    #130181
    gobyebye
    gobyebye
    Participant

    God knows you got a long way to go before you can beat me at whiny!
    You did the right thing by asking for prayer. But since you posted some stuff, I will post some stuff.
    The first thing I noticed is that old lie of the devil, that everyone will be better off if we just die, or at least checkout. Haven’t we learned anything from Pottersville! Life doesn’t necessarily get better if we are taken out of the way.
    I hope you have broad shoulders, cause you now have three jobs. You are full-time seeking employment. You are now the Chief cook and bottle washer! And you are now Teacher to a young mind. What is he learning? Will he be prepared to go out in the world and take on his Goliath; or will he join a generation destined to do time in the parents’ basement?
    I will gladly pray for your family. That is easy. The hard part is up to you.

    #130182
    No Other Rock
    No Other Rock
    Moderator

    Bsfc, there is a book I feel impressed to point you towards…

    It is called Win Every Battle by Michael L. Galiga – to purchase or to find or request at a library… It is about basic life-transforming principles that equip to survive the challenges of life, reminding that it is the devil who comes to kill steal and destroy, but it is God who has given authority to trample on and overcome the power of the enemy, and that nothing will harm you. He shares concepts that will show you what to do, how to do it and how to stand after complete surrender to God. I do believe it is fitting for you in your circumstances, and I encourage you to read it. It goes beyond your comment about the ability to quote much scripture, in to biblical steps to follow that can bring true freedom, hope and Gods will back in to your life. :heart:

    Believing, praying and hoping God’s best for you.

    Rocki

    I Am the Lord! Besides Me there is no Savior. For there is no other name under Heaven given among men by which we must be saved. For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved!...For in him we live, and move, and have our being!

    #130185

    Bsfc123
    Participant

    Thank you so much for your prayers. Reading all of your responses has strengthened me this morning. You all are the best, I don’t have a physical church, and you all always remind me that I DO have a church, with other Christians who love me.

    #130186
    Sweetbriar
    Sweetbriar
    Participant

    Dear Brother, it’s been almost 4 years since my dear Christian nephew put that pistol to his head (in front of his younger cousin, my son, who loved him so much!) and pulled the trigger.
    If I could go back and stop him, I would in a heartbeat!
    Would you let me say to you what I wish I could have said to him?

    First, yes we need hope! I hear your desperation, and if I do, our Lord does even more. You are not abandoned.
    You are loved more than you know!

    Second, you are not alone. You have a wife and son. You seem to think they might be better off without you. Dear One, you are hearing a lie from that old father of lies.
    Your wife could “find a better man.” In this culture? With the added pressures of being a single mom?
    And what about your son? If he’s panicking at the thought of school while he can come home to you, what would your absence do to him?
    Believe me, my entire family, even years later, is still scarred by T’s death.

    I know life is hard. It is!
    You wonder what testimony you have.
    Let me list a few things I see in you:
    Seeking the Lord
    Patience in testing
    Enlisting others (us!) to pray for your need
    Being there for your family
    Being unwilling to accept the devil’s lies

    Think how fast time is going. All this will pass.
    I am praying Christ’s victory over you!
    Please keep us updated!

    #130190
    gobyebye
    gobyebye
    Participant

    OK, I really should stop, but …
    I do have a church. I have two, and those people annoy me! They are what people call destination churches. One lady drives 75 miles to worship there.
    They have Sunday Schools , and your kid would probably benefit attending one.
    Being around annoying Christians once a week usually beats 7 days of being around nonbelievers, month after month.

    #130193
    Victory Chanter
    Victory Chanter
    Moderator

    Brother, I hear you. It appears the devil has been busy whispering in your ear. He’d love nothing better than to remove a solid Christian man who is a threat to him who stands between him and your wife and son. Discouragement is the name of his games. I am pleased to hear your wife is trying and your son is being taught at home by you. That sounds like improvement in your situation. Hang in there on the job search. Patience is a fruit of the Spirit. Maybe God is teaching this. Creating this in you now. As His vessel, we are all being prepared to serve in the near future. He will strengthen us.

    The keys of Heaven are binding and loosening. Bind this demon whispering in your ear in the Name of Jesus. Loosen God’s Word in your ear. You have the 2-3 in His Name committing here to pray for you so all are in agreement. Bind up every demon assaulting you and send them to Jesus to dispose of. They must leave in His mighty Name. Jesus will take care of them. Return any curses back on those sending them. Could you have enemies wanting you to fail? In any case, refuse to accept any curses.

    Your family needs you. The devil would like nothing more than to have your wife and son entrapped without you. Imagine them trying to find their way alone in a world decomposing like ours is and worsening every day. Think about those alone struggling to survive in today’s society. You have each other. That’s a blessing. Maybe things aren’t as you would like but it would be much worse for these you love without you. The very fact satan is whispering these things in your ear means you are making difference whether or not you realize it. Would he waste his time on a lost cause? No. This means you have a future role you are unaware of as yet but it must be a good one for satan to be so interested in you now. It sounds to me like God has big plans for you just ahead. Make Him proud of you so you can hear the words. “Well done, good and faithful servant”, in the end. It will be worth it. :good:

    You are tired and stressed. Ask the Lord to strengthen you as we will also request. Determine to leave this world under God’s power in Holy Victory! Jesus must have the last word ; not satan. Only one route is victorious. God makes the decision when and where. I believe you will soon be infused with Holy Spirit power and will not only bless your family but many others around you then. This is not the time to throw in the towel. Take a brief break to renew your spirit if need be but hang on for dear life. The best is yet to come. It always looks darkest before the sun/Son rises. Praying for His blessings on you and your family.

    The eyes of the Lord range throughout the entire earth, to strengthen those whose heart is true to him.



    #130194

    Barry
    Participant

    OK, I really should stop, but …
    I do have a church. I have two, and those people annoy me! They are what people call destination churches. One lady drives 75 miles to worship there.
    They have Sunday Schools , and your kid would probably benefit attending one.
    Being around annoying Christians once a week usually beats 7 days of being around nonbelievers, month after month.

    I’m very blessed to have a wonderful local church to attend. Still uses the King James bible, still has a preacher who isn’t afraid to preach about sin, still believes marriage is one man and one woman, and isn’t afraid to teach and preach out of Revelation.

    John 6:67 Then said Jesus unto the twelve, Will ye also go away? 68 Then Simon Peter answered him, Lord, to whom shall we go? thou hast the words of eternal life. 69 And we believe and are sure that thou art that Christ, the Son of the living God.

    #130195
    Goodcheer
    Goodcheer
    Participant

    I’m praying for you, brother. I’ve had plenty of times of feeling whiney and stupid, angry at God, wishing I could just not wake up, feeling like a failure…. but I don’t feel like that now, and I haven’t for a long time, praise Jesus! You are loved, whether you’re riding high on a wave of joy, or scrambling on the rocky beach of despair. I wish I could somehow make it all better for you, but I can’t, so I’ll be praying for improvement for you and your family, and that you can be comforted by the knowledge that you are infinitely precious to our Lord, even when you’re feeling unworthy.

    P.S. I just read Victory Chanter’s post. Amen!

    Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.


    #130196
    Victory Chanter
    Victory Chanter
    Moderator

    From “Jesus Calling” by Sarah Young…

    In me you have everything. In me. you are complete. Your capacity to experience Me is increasing, through My removal of debris and clutter from your heart. As your yearning for me increases, other desires are gradually lessening. Since I am infinite and abundantly accessible to you, desiring Me above all else is the best way to live.

    It is impossible for you to have a need that I cannot meet. After all. I created you and everything that is. The world is still at my beck and call, though it often appears otherwise. Do not be fooled by appearances. Things that are visible are brief and fleeting, while things that are invisible are everlasting.

    “Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us.” EPHESIANS 3:20

    “Since we consider and look not to things that are seen but to the things that are unseen; for the things that are visible are temporal (brief and fleeting), but the things that are visible are deathless and everlasting.”
    2 Corinthians 4:18

    Never forget:
    God is bigger than
    your problems.
    Whatever worries
    press upon you
    today, put them in
    God’s Hands-
    and leave them there.

    Billy Graham

    The eyes of the Lord range throughout the entire earth, to strengthen those whose heart is true to him.



    #130219
    TxThom
    TxThom
    Keymaster

    Do not discount the witness of a steadfast love that endures. It comes from God, not from our human nature, and is recognizable as such.

    Psalm 136
    Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good,
    for his steadfast love endures forever.
    2 Give thanks to the God of gods,
    for his steadfast love endures forever.
    3 Give thanks to the Lord of lords,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    4 to him who alone does great wonders,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    5 to him who by understanding made the heavens,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    6 to him who spread out the earth above the waters,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    7 to him who made the great lights,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    8 the sun to rule over the day,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    9 the moon and stars to rule over the night,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    10 to him who struck down the firstborn of Egypt,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    11 and brought Israel out from among them,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    12 with a strong hand and an outstretched arm,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    13 to him who divided the Red Sea in two,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    14 and made Israel pass through the midst of it,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    15 but overthrew[a] Pharaoh and his host in the Red Sea,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    16 to him who led his people through the wilderness,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    17 to him who struck down great kings,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    18 and killed mighty kings,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    19 Sihon, king of the Amorites,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    20 and Og, king of Bashan,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    21 and gave their land as a heritage,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    22 a heritage to Israel his servant,
    for his steadfast love endures forever.
    23 It is he who remembered us in our low estate,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    24 and rescued us from our foes,
    for his steadfast love endures forever;
    25 he who gives food to all flesh,
    for his steadfast love endures forever.
    26 Give thanks to the God of heaven,
    for his steadfast love endures forever.

    I am convinced of this, that the One who began a good action among you will bring it to completion by the Day of the Messiah Jesus. Philippians 1:6



    #130222
    Victory Chanter
    Victory Chanter
    Moderator

    I’m reminded of the story Jesus told about the man who built his house on the rock. Matthew 7 — Notice this phrase: 27″ And the rain descended , the floods came, and the winds blew and bear on that house; and it fell. And great was its fall.” This was the house built on sand rather than the rock which is of course, Jesus.

    What I want to draw attention to is the promise this will happen. There is no promise that storms won’t come. It says they will come. No maybe about it. I think we read into it that we are protected from the storm. Period. That it won’t happen to us. That’s not the promise made.

    The house that stands and buffets the storm is the one built on the rock, on Jesus and trusting Him. Even so there is no promise but somehow He will see us through these storms in life. It may not be our preference because God uses such things to train us; prepare us for His purposes. Now look at today’s environment. His warriors need to be tough and experienced. Know the signs around them and ready to step forward when our name is called. That takes training and a degree of toughness. Experience to draw on. A form of training. It would be naïve to throw a baby into a full fledge battle. But if we carry His name He will save us. Preserve us in our hour of need. You are in training. Hence the overload now. But you have His promises to see you through these days. One day you will look back and better understand this time period. It’s hard to see when going through it. May you have a bright, sunshiny day of clarity in your journey today.

    The eyes of the Lord range throughout the entire earth, to strengthen those whose heart is true to him.



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