I would like to get your thoughts on this. I'll try not to make this too long.
In the last few months, I have had a lot of trouble with anger and depression. I have a difficult time concentrating when I read or pray. I feel resentment and bitterness about hurts in my past and although I have forgiven certain people many times for things that they did - the hurts still come back. I have difficulty making decisions and then sticking to that decision once it is made. At times, I have felt that I was "losing it" and would try to make light of it by telling friends that I just hope it doesn't happen in the middle of Walmart! But, it has been no joking matter. I have been a Christian for many years and spirit filled. But, I feel like I have been in bondage but not sure to what. And with the coming of the Lord so near, it just seem to compound my fears and concerns. What if because of all this, I missed the rapture?
In the past, my mother dabbled in the occult. She had her astrological chart read, attended a seance, did spirit writing and could work a ouiji board all by herself. She belonged to an occultic book club and had many books on all forms of occult. After we talked and after much prayer, she renounced all that and destroyed the books. I have also dabbled in the occult - ouiji boards, had some one read my tarot cards, investigated the Mormon religion and read and studied Edgar Cayce. That was a long, long time ago and I have also renounced all of that. Much of this was after I had made a decision for the Lord and by God's grace, He sent red flags my way to keep me from continuing.
However, last night, I stumbled onto something unexpected. I listened to a teaching on Freemasonry. My grandfather was a 3rd degree Mason and my grandmother and mother were members of the Eastern Star. I never joined or had anything to do with that as I felt long ago that it was occultic. However, this teacher who was a former Mormon and pointed out the similarities between the two, talked about the curses that come down to the descendants of a Freemason up to 3 and 4 generations. I had never thought of that. I found on the internet a deliverance prayer for those involved in Freemasonry and those descendants. http://www.isaiah54.org/freemasonry.html
It is a very long prayer but I decided to do it. I prayed it outloud. They recommended that I pray with another individual but at 12:30 am, that wasn't feasible. I was shocked as I prayed this as it mentioned symptoms of the mind and emotions and even physical symptoms that are part of all those curses. It touched on every thing that had been bothering me. I was blown away.
I can't say that I felt a great uplifting feeling afterwards but I reminded myself that I had renounced all that junk and that it was done. Today, I feel a bit more at peace and believe I had a breakthrough.\
Has anyone here experienced this? Any thoughts?