Hey RITA. I havent posted in RITA Now since more than a year and have been lurking, even forgot I had account. I started watching since 2008 but for a year now, I have been at war against the enemy and struggled to stay alert and walk with the Lord. I had been slowly and slowly turning lukewarm until only several days ago where I started to pay attention to the times we are living in. Basically, a huge dry spell...
Oh and 'Gooner' my old nickname was the name of this account a year ago. I decided to change it to my real name 'Austin' today in case someone remembers lol
But the reason for this post is that I need prayer from fellow christians for deliverance from sexual immorality. I am 18 now and since about 13 years of age, I have been dealing with porn and masturbation and lust and perverted thoughts in my head. It has been such a struggle to repent because I would ask God to forgive and help me repent but only for me to give in to the same sins over again. Its warring against my desire to walk with God and the watch. Its such a difficult thing to overcome. Over the last couple of days, Ive been in heavy worship and praise and prayer to the Lord during the nights as long as till sunrise and even then i still struggle to keep some random sexually perverted thought from popping into my head. Ive been getting a drive from the Holy Spirit to get other believers to pray instead of just being all on my own for this stronghold. Sometimes i even feel some dark presence in my room even when I have worship on, although it leaves when I pray or command it in Jesus Name.
Please I need prayer for God lead me to freedom from the oppression of sexual sin. I feel ashamed when I give in to temptation realizing I put sin in the temple of the Holy Spirit. Thanks.