You can post some links if you'd like. :)
As for growth...Jesus please get Yourself alot of glory and praise for this...You deserve it for getting me to this point.
Before I get to the main growth part of the "testamony" I want to put something. Back in like the Summer of 08, that's when I met the JWs. I knew a girl a grade a head of me but I didn't know she was a JW for awhile. We became friends. Anyways, like probably around the Fall of 08 (10th grade) I started to question what I believed about the deity of Christ. Keep in mind I thought I was saved but I didn't know Jesus yet. I ended up thinking they really know what they're talking about. I was very close to deciding to become a JW. If they were there when I was thinking about it I would have probably told them I want to become a JW. I looked up stuff online and found out something wasn't quite right. I don't know how long it took but the Holy Spirit convicted me that I still needed Jesus. I did a search for the true God (and if He even existed in the first place) and how to recieve salvation.
I remembered verses like "seek and ye shall find" and, I think it may be in Deutronamy about searching for God with all your heart or something like that. I figured it's better to wait longer and get the right answer than get the wrong answer in a short period of time. He saved me at the end of 11th grade in May. He was pacient with me and I thank Him for that. It's by His grace I kept searching for God and didn't become a JW right away.
I've learned how things just weren't right after time talking with the elder/his wife for awhile. I guess that's part of the journey/growth as well.
Now to the growth part that He, by His grace,has let me go through.
It was probably sometime around Sept. 2011 that I started trying to find help online. I was scared for mom and for me. At first I didn't care for the JWs. For I was scared of them,what they'd do to mom,this family and me.
I kept trying to find answers from people. Well, in, I think it was March, I read about a JW woman. She refused a blood transfusion. I read how her eyes got big and dialted or whatever...her husband was too late with a blood transfusion to save her life. The Holy Spirit softened my heart after reading that. By God's mercy I also was able to get a red blood cell online. It's a plastic model.
"for educational and discussion purposes only"
I understand things better with I see them visually and getting to work with it hands on. So, the Holy Spirit convicted my heart after reading about that dear woman. And after getting more "into" reading about the JW blood issue and learning about the topic on things such as red blood cells and arteries...well let's just say He knew how to soften my heart and to love them. That was the beginning for that.
I went to Kingdom Hall April 5th for the Memorial with mom and the elder's wife. I wanted to see what info. I could get. Well, I took a little notebook. It barely got written in...I think the Holy Spirit was showing me a more valuble lesson than one that could be written down in words.
I remember I was around the area of the restrooms. I got the chills...I remember there was some men talking. I think said something about "is that a new one?" or something like that....I'm not sure exactly how he put it but you know how people say they got chills up and down their spine? That was like the closest I got to that ever...just the way he said it went right through me.
Well, there the elder's wife,my mom and me sat. I looked for Sarah,my friend I mentioned about who was a grade ahead of me when she was in 10th,I in 9th. I couldn't find her. As I sat there the Holy Spirit let me see alot of lost souls. The air was so thick you could have cut it with a spiritual knife...What was really sad is about the taking in of bread and wine. I studied the wine glasses. Ether no one took a drink or barely anyone took the bread and wine...if someone doesn't take the bread/wine they don't think they're part of the 144,000.
For those who don't know JWs believe only 144,000 will go to Heaven/can be born again/have Jesus as their Mediator. Infact they believe most (if not all) of the NT is for the 144,000 not for the others...
The true memorial/communion Jesus wants us to partake in...it's intended for every believer in Christ. No true child of God can be left out and told he/she isn't allowed to have the bread/wine. For the bread/wine represents His body that was broken for us and the wine represents Hi precious blood that was shed for our sins. It has nothing to do with groups...God is no respecter of persons....it's all about what Jesus did for us on the cross. It's so sad. They just passed the wine/bread to the next person who passed it on to the next...
I also didn't hear the much on the "ransom" or "sacrifice". I mainly heard about the 144,000 talked about....
I'm going to put another post,part 2. I think I'm loosing my train of thought because of the length of this post.