Paul, I really do understand about seeing others having experiences that we wish we could relate to. It's difficult feeling as if you're the odd person in any crowd. At least, it is for me.
I've done years of introspection, every range of the emotional spectrum, and wondering if things might have been different had I only been different.
I still don't know the answers; perhaps even after this world I won't get an answer that ties together all the loose ends as I'd wish for now. We are who we are, and that's the way God made us. But I do truly believe that when I see His face, I shall be satisfied.
What it will be like is fun to dream about and anticipate. The details are hidden from us. When we get there, perhaps we will get a laugh at how it couldn't have been anything but wonderful. The only thing I know is that there won't be any sense of lacking something to complete our joy. Whatever we are like there will be exactly the way it should be. There will be fellowship and companionship there, I have no doubt. It will far exceed anything this life offers and it will never be taken away from us.
The greatest joy will be to know God. That is not simply a way of pacifying hearts that long for fulfillment they were denied here. How it will happen, I cannot tell you, as I do not understand it myself. But I have faith that if God gave us His Son, then He will withhold no good thing from us.
That is why I have determined no longer to pine over things I might have missed out on if I find myself in heaven sooner than I thought. Any time is fine with me. I know you trust in God's grace; you may also be assured of His generosity.
I enjoy your posts; you eagerly anticipate the realization of God's promises.