January 7, 2017 at 8:50 am #126773
Hello RITAN Family:
Seeking your prayers and a possible Church recommendation in the context of a major crossroad I am approaching in my life. Forgive the length of this personal post. I am pouring out my heart in one of the few places I have the ability to do so these days.
My wife and I (still together after 28 years solely by the grace of God) are now empty-nesters and considering selling our house and moving. She is originally from Kansas, and I grew up in California. After spending about 18 years together raising our daughter in the KC area, we have ended up in the state of Tennessee. Through circumstance and, depending who you ask, providence, we moved here about four years ago. I really believed the Lord led us here, but most of those four years have proven to be perhaps the most painful, anguish-filled years of an already incredibly painful life (some of you may recall an earlier post of mine and have an idea of that which I speak).
My wife is originally from the Midwest and I grew up in California. We ended up spending about 18 years in the KC area (1994-2012) raising our daughter, who is now in her first year of law school back in California. We now find ourselves living in an area where we have no family, very few friends, no substantive fellowship, and are surrounded by a southern cultural Christianity that is filled with hypocrisy such that I have a better idea than ever before why it is that the lukewarm “Christians” of Laodicea make the Lord sick to His stomach. There is the proverbial “church building on every corner”, but we have not been able to find a healthy church body where we fit in and people have room in their life to welcome “an outsider”. Frankly, we feel like we are in a foreign land.
Meanwhile, my lyme disease and the 2 ½ years it took me to get back to a place where I was at least healthy enough to attempt to work full time, along with a financially irresponsible “helpmate”, has pretty much wiped us out financially. Thankfully, I have been working full-time again since June. Truly Lord, thank You for restoring enough of my mind and body from the ravages of Lyme to enable me to work again.
We are now considering selling our house, which, if the market holds, would allow us to pay off our debt and have a little money left to pay for a relocation. I know time is so very short, and part of me would much rather just sit pat and wait for the Lord. However, one of my deep desires is to honor God by leaving this world owing no man anything but love. I have prayed and asked the Lord to allow me, as a matter of integrity before Him, to pay off all my family’s debts before I die or am raptured. I am prayerfully considering that the means by which the Lord might be answering my prayer is to sell our home.
So, all of that background to say, I am asking for your help in two ways:
1) If you know of a GOOD, unapologetically Bible-based, politically incorrect Church where the pastor understands the times we live in, understands and embraces the pre-tribulation rapture, and understands how serious his role is to shepherd the hearts of the sheep whom the Lord has given him the privilege to lead, I would love to know about such a Church. My wife and I are open to considering moving to other areas.
2) I would deeply appreciate your prayers for the Lord to give me an understanding, hearing heart that could discern His guidance and would obey His leading regarding if or when to sell the house, where to move, and where to find the kind of Church we long to be a part of in living out these final days before the Bridegroom returns.
We are battered and bruised and wearied, so we will need His strength and guidance to do any of this. This is all SO out of my comfort zone. I would so much prefer be well-situated and just waiting on Him to come for us in these perilous days, rather than to add all of this uncertainty into the mix at such a time as this. I feel like the last time I attempted to discern His leading and we moved, our whole world blew up and I became a cousin of Job. I do not have that in me to go through another episode like that. I believe it would literally kill me.
Prayers appreciated and Spirit-inspired thoughts welcomed. And, for those who made it all the way to the end of this post, thank you for taking time to do so.
John 14:1-3 “Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me. In My Father’s house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also."
January 7, 2017 at 9:03 am #126774
Praying praying. We are in eastern TN and have a spectacular church. Just magnificent. We are also pulling out of the Lyme disease ditch and are intensely grateful to the Lord. I am not sure where in TN you live but would love to share.
January 7, 2017 at 9:25 am #126776
Prayers for wisdom and ears to hear Watchman35.
The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.
January 7, 2017 at 10:08 am #126781
Am praying for you, brother.
DaveJanuary 7, 2017 at 10:31 am #126783
prayer for you Watchman, our Lord lead you and bless you in the coming days until His return in Jesus name
Ani L'Dodi V'Dodi Li
I am my beloved's, my beloved is mine
January 7, 2017 at 10:59 am #126786
Prayer for you and your wife. Remember that Job was fully restored and then some! Praying for that for you.
January 7, 2017 at 1:43 pm #126790
Watchman, God bless you and keep you guild you and direct ever step ever turn. let him lead you in his power that you would know ever turn with the confidence of his spirit the reassurance of his perfect peace and his steadfast love. ybicJanuary 7, 2017 at 3:18 pm #126794
I am adding my prayers to those of my brothers and sisters here for you, Watchman.
It is wise of you to stay still until you know for sure that He is leading you somewhere else.
(Just trying to be an encouragement here.)
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